"He pulled away. That was a big hello for me. I realized I could lose the person I loved and I had to deal with some things, issues I think a lot of women have. You can be strong in one aspect of your life but submissive in another. ... [But] I'm not interested in taming anyone - I'm pretty wild myself." - Katy Perry on her relationship with John Mayer (read full post here)
I had my wake up call a month and a half ago. It was an experience I never wish to experience ever again. I was heart broken, I was in pain. My chest was about to explode and saw my entire future collapsing in front of me. My eyes were red and swollen and my happiness taken away from me. We almost broke up.
I have the best boyfriend in the world. My baby, who is so very patient and caring was pushed to the edge and he felt it was time to let go. My Path profile summed it up in 5 words... "6 years down the drain...". I was jealous, I guess it was because of my woman intuition that all these thoughts come into my head. I know something is up. I know he is also just a guy who could "like" someone else other than me. And all I could think of is "What will I do if I lose him? No one will take me for I am sick and broken."
He "likes" her. It is nothing more than that. But then everything starts with a "like" right? This isn't like facebook where you could just throw a bunch of "likes" in someone else's profile. This is real life like. I asked him a bunch of questions, he's been honest, sometimes very honest that I do not even want to hear the answer. But if I want our relationship honest and true, I have to take in the answers he gave me. Even if it was painful. I guess that is the price you have to pay for a real honest relationship. I am thankful and believe deep in my heart and mind that he never cheated on me. Not even once. I am happy to know that. And I do believe him when he told me he never did. I could tell, I could see it. I guess we were just in that bend in our lives that everything got bored, and we had new things in front of us. Well, not really in front of us, mostly in front of him. But we were able to make things work. We have a better understanding of each other now. And yes, we are still true and honest with each other.
We are still together, going stronger than before. I love him, and he loves me. And I guess, that is all that really matters. No matter what other people told him when we were having problems he pushed aside, because he loves me, and he wants to stay with me.
I guess it wasn't really "6 years down the drain" after all.
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