My weight problem..

I have been healthy, or I think I am for the past year. I could walk miles without feeling shortness of breath but lately I have been having a lot of those instances...

I think I gained too much weight, and I don't know what I need to do. I try not to eat as much but I always get hungry. My doctor said I need to exercise more, I try to walk as much as I can. I don't really have time or even money to go to the gym.. My god, call me cheap all you want but I am not paying 40 bucks a month. Lol. I have to many medical bills to think about before I think of more expenses.

I know, I know, I should think about more about my health, and spending $40 to make my health better is not really a problem. You know my problem really is, I need an exercise buddy, but everyone else is just to busy or doesn't really match my schedule.

Ugh! I also missed one of my lab exams since I totally forgot about it. I have been in too much "something". I don't even know what it was. If it's stress or something like that!

I got myself a puppy so I can walk her all the time, but it gets to dark early and I can't walk her by myself since where I live, it is dangerous to walk around just like that.

I need a life. LOL. A more active one that this. I just need something else to do in this city... Any ideas that i could do in this cement jungle I call Los Angeles? I can't be in a gym and get stuck with all the rest of the sweaty people...Oh well. I need to figure things out. Just to get myself in better health.

Wish me luck my loves. :D

My own version of a Heart Attack

Nasty!

Look what I found on the elevator yesterday?!?!

My baby... :)

:(

I decided to deactivate my Facebook account just so I don't start with all the drama.

I feel so unappreciated and uncared for. When I think I have done all I could to tell him I love him and I care for him and I will do whatever he want me to do for him. But I don't think he appreciates me or at least love me the same.

I am hurt. And sometimes, I think, I need to move on.

World meet Sable! :)

On the road..

this is all I saw when i got out of the los angeles area, starting from sun valley to palmdale...

Mountains, mountains, and mountains...

Friday the 13th!

I had a Friday the 13th curse for the first time in years.. maybe because it's my birthday after 2 days.. :)
Sucks! I got out of the house really early and when I went to my destination, I forgot my keys. So I have to go back and get my keys... so when i get back to where I am suppose to be, I am late... Oh well...

I got a good laugh though, to make my bad days.. :) I surfed 9gag.com .. you guys should check it out... :)

Who stole my cotton candy?!?

Papi stole some of my cotton candy... :) How can I get angry with that cute face... :D

Papi's birthday gift to me!!

Cotton candy maker!!! Weee!!!

Pershing Square, Los Angeles

One of my favorite corners in Los Angeles
606 Bldg, corner at 6th St and Hill St

Mama said I need new shoes...

But I like my old shoes! And still no holes on the soles, why buy new ones?!? Right?!?

My Birthday Wishlist

It's Tuesday, January 10 2012. :) You have 5 more days to buy me a gift. I don't want you to be all sad and depressed that you weren't able to get me one. So I am helping you right now. Here are a list of the things I want (as of the moment). I will make it so easy for you that I will even include the websites where it could be bought! Wahahaha! :) It's only once a year, so just give this chance to me, and no, giving me the chance is not a gift ok?!?

1. Wreck this Journal by Keri Smith - Already bought it. :) Papi gave me money!
2. Finish this Book by Keri Smith
3. What I Love About You by Kate & David Marshall
4. Clinique Redness Solutions Kit
5. Make-up Studio Blockbuster by Sephora
6. The Body Shop Aloe 4-piece Facial Skin Care Regime
7. Urban Decay Naked 2
8. Bare Minerals' Bare Escentuals Sephora Exclusive Get Started Kit in Medium
9. Cotton Candy Maker - another gift from Papi
10. Cake Pop Maker - this is the cheapest one, and isn't available right now at Kmart
11. Silk Screen Printe
12. Starbucks gift card - you could email it to jocx15@live.com :D it's ok if you only love me $5 worth..
13. More Pilot Petit pens and Inks - I think I have a pen addiction, I don't know why... I also would like to try this ink. 
14. a black book as a journal
15. and of course, gift cards are always welcome :) from near by places ok! I live by Downtown Los Angeles, not in the valley or orange county...

And there you have it, I hope I helped you with your dilemma! :) Will see if I have something on Saturday! Probably I will invite you.. if I know you that is.. :)

FEW MORE DAYS TILL BDAY!!! :)

Simple Beauty

A potted plant that is owned by one of the neighbors...

Yellow...

The yellow-y hue caused by the lamp makes the tree look, I don't know, like art?!? :)
I think it's beautiful so I took a picture of it...

NoHo Metro Station 010812

While waiting for my Bf's cousin.. Weird tile design on the metro station, beautiful scenery, and questionable people :) this is why I like Los Angeles! It's just fun and random!!!

NoHo trip...

Upper right: Omar with his sexy bikes
Upper left: Skye
Bottom left:: weird tile art at the train station
Bottom center: chapstick
Bottom right: Chapstick in my backpack

will be posting photo's of my random life soon, i will just double post it from tumblr, to ad more color and fun in my blog.. :)

1 week...

I have been delayed for one week. And no, I don't think I am pregnant. But as a precausion I will be buying pregnancy test. 

So you ask why I ended up with this conclusion? It is very simple actually. I have done my research about Prednisone, about Lupus and the other drugs I drink.

What is Prednisone?

It is a steroid medicine, that suppress my overactive immune system, so I will be able to control my Lupus flare ups.

What is a Lupus flare up?

Well it comes out in different ways in people. I, for example, have facial rashes and joint pain. But for some, who have misjudge some of its symptoms and found it late, could have kidney failure at worst.

Why did I think I am not pregnant and not worrying about pregnancy?

It is a fact that Prednisone could affect your hormone level. And I am currently down to one pill a day of Prednisone after being on 3 to 2 and half, to 2 to 1 and half, for months. And during those months that I have a huge dosage of Prednisone I am down to 1. And I have been on one pill a day for only 2 weeks before my period. And I think this affected it. Before, I was, coincidentally, just about to have my period or was done for only a couple of days after my period that my hormone levels (i think) was able to cope with the change.

Since all of this are only my hunch, why, you ask, I am not worried that I not pregnant? For one reason. :)

I know when I had sex and the past holiday, I have none! No time and place, and very busy with the holiday preps and my boyfriend's sisters being in town. And those babies are quite a handful. Lovely little ladies who are such spoiled brats (in a very loving way) Such smartasses too!

For example, after getting a Monster High doll for Christmas.

T: (brushing the doll's hair for the first time) Oh no! My baby (the doll) has Lupus!! It's losing its hair!

I was mixed emotions on this one. I don't know if I should be annoyed coz they are making fun of my sickness, or laugh coz of the funny comment, or be happy coz at least they know what I have and is aware of why I lost my hair.

They are young, but sometimes it gives me heartaches when they ask why am I losing my hair? why do you have that on your face? will it go? I tried to explain but sometimes, it's a little bit hard for them to understand. They don't understand, like some other people, why the one that makes me sick, are the same ones that keep them healthy. Oh dear Lupus researchers, I do wish you well and tell me how this happened to me.

Maybe one day, they will... (fingers crossed) and I hope to see them.

Happy New Year!

Happy New Year my loves!! :)

Another year to battle this disease, that you and me both hate. But, we have to deal with it. We can't do anything anyway. Might as well, right?

So, for the last days I haven't done anything really, just hanging out with friends, normal daily activities. The thing I am quite uneasy of is I am not on time with my period. The reason might because I am down to 1 pill of prednisone. We all know that prednisone affects hormones, so hopefully, it is all that there is.

I do want to be pregnant, but not during this time, not during this flare up.

Someday, I will have my family and be happy with my family.

Lupus, I hate you. But then I have to live with you. Hohummm... Another year with lupus, another year to survive...