My little heart hurts...

I broke down yesterday... :(
I cried myself to sleep. I cried so hard I didn't even know when I fell asleep.
I should have known and learned it by now not to expect anything from him.
He is the best, at somethings, but he is not a very affectionate person.
Valentine's day just passed me.. nothing from him. Not even a lousy greeting of "Happy Valentine's Day!".
Sucks, because most of the time I blame myself. I blame myself for expecting something, and then when disappointment comes it is because of me. I expected something. Even if I knew, I am not suppose to.  I blame myself for still being here... He is far from perfect, and so am I so I do not expect to find someone perfect, right? That is the most logical thing to do. But no, you know what, there are imperfect beings out there that would, maybe, be imperfectly perfect for me. But I choose to stay... I choose to be here because I love him. I don't think that he doesn't love me back, but I need and want stuff from him. But no, he is not the kind of person who will give you flowers on Valentine's day. Or when the flowers he expected didn't come out as great or even there, he will make a way to get you some. One single flower, that is all I ask.. but NOTHING.
NOTHING.

Maybe I am just rambling, ranting or something.. I know soon this feeling will go. But as of this moment, this is what I feel. :( Disappointed and Sad.

I hope the rest of you had a better Valentine's day than I did. Even when you are single.

Dec 22... I hate YOU!

Every year on this day, I think about YOU!

Not because of a heartache, but of a friendship that ended without me even knowing.

HOW? WHEN? WHAT DID I DO? WHY????

Yes, every year. I think and think and think about YOU.

YOU are a freaking asshole you know, you could just tell me what I did and why you never ever ever again talk to me. We were friends! We were awesome! I don't freaking understand! I never had a chance to explain for I never even knew your reason.

This will hunt me to my grave. Seriously. But I have to suffer. Why? Because I will never ever have the courage, nor I will ever have a chance to talk to you. 

OMG I HATE YOU! But I liked you once.

You suck! :(

Sad.