My little heart hurts...

I broke down yesterday... :(
I cried myself to sleep. I cried so hard I didn't even know when I fell asleep.
I should have known and learned it by now not to expect anything from him.
He is the best, at somethings, but he is not a very affectionate person.
Valentine's day just passed me.. nothing from him. Not even a lousy greeting of "Happy Valentine's Day!".
Sucks, because most of the time I blame myself. I blame myself for expecting something, and then when disappointment comes it is because of me. I expected something. Even if I knew, I am not suppose to.  I blame myself for still being here... He is far from perfect, and so am I so I do not expect to find someone perfect, right? That is the most logical thing to do. But no, you know what, there are imperfect beings out there that would, maybe, be imperfectly perfect for me. But I choose to stay... I choose to be here because I love him. I don't think that he doesn't love me back, but I need and want stuff from him. But no, he is not the kind of person who will give you flowers on Valentine's day. Or when the flowers he expected didn't come out as great or even there, he will make a way to get you some. One single flower, that is all I ask.. but NOTHING.
NOTHING.

Maybe I am just rambling, ranting or something.. I know soon this feeling will go. But as of this moment, this is what I feel. :( Disappointed and Sad.

I hope the rest of you had a better Valentine's day than I did. Even when you are single.

I won!!!

Me and my Baby usually have random fights because we always try to outsmart each other. I usually end up losing and angry... **I am such a sore loser** But yesterday was my glowing moment...

O: I'm so awesome I'm going to have an alienware laptop!!!
J: I'm so awesome I have the Samsung Tab and I'm going to have an alienware laptop!!
O: Oh yeah? I'm so awesome I have the Galaxy S phone, a huge HDTV and an HDMI DVD Player and an Alienware laptop!!!
J: Oh yeah? I'm more awesome coz I have all of that coz I have you!
O: **smile** that's good!

It's not that hard to be cheesy... lol

6 more days till Valentines Day!!

It's Valentines Day!!!!! Almost...

It's February. And hearts day is about to come up very soon. :)
I am not one for surprises because I hate it.
And my baby's birthday is on the 13th. Yes, day before valentines day.
With all these in mind, guess what I will do?? I will be celebrating on Saturday the 12th. It will be too crowded on 14th to go out. I can't drink on the 13th because it's a workday the next day. And I believe, unless you are proposing or something, it is nice to have a planned valentines day.

I used to hate valentines day. It's usually the day when I am left alone. I don't date anyone before. Like an old hag waiting for her prince charming that never came. Until I realize my Prince Charming is not in my home country, or the same race as I am. There is a happily ever after after all... lol.

WELL, Advance Happy Birthday Mi Amor! and Advance Happy Valentines Day too!!