My little heart hurts...

I broke down yesterday... :(
I cried myself to sleep. I cried so hard I didn't even know when I fell asleep.
I should have known and learned it by now not to expect anything from him.
He is the best, at somethings, but he is not a very affectionate person.
Valentine's day just passed me.. nothing from him. Not even a lousy greeting of "Happy Valentine's Day!".
Sucks, because most of the time I blame myself. I blame myself for expecting something, and then when disappointment comes it is because of me. I expected something. Even if I knew, I am not suppose to.  I blame myself for still being here... He is far from perfect, and so am I so I do not expect to find someone perfect, right? That is the most logical thing to do. But no, you know what, there are imperfect beings out there that would, maybe, be imperfectly perfect for me. But I choose to stay... I choose to be here because I love him. I don't think that he doesn't love me back, but I need and want stuff from him. But no, he is not the kind of person who will give you flowers on Valentine's day. Or when the flowers he expected didn't come out as great or even there, he will make a way to get you some. One single flower, that is all I ask.. but NOTHING.
NOTHING.

Maybe I am just rambling, ranting or something.. I know soon this feeling will go. But as of this moment, this is what I feel. :( Disappointed and Sad.

I hope the rest of you had a better Valentine's day than I did. Even when you are single.

I'm back... Seriously.. LOL

I am lucky that I choose my blog to be as random as can be... I think it's because of my ADHD... :)

Nah, just because my life is as random as it can be, a little bit skewed, a little bit straight, diagonally inclined... :)

I decided, I'm on facebook most of the time, watching all these beautiful videos worth sharing... why not share it here... I enjoyed watching them why not share it here.. I only got 3 followers but I don't mind..

Personal friend followers are more amazing than random unknown people....

So cheers to you guys.. and please wait for my next post...

I don't want to leave my children in a world like this..

I hope in a not so distant future, my children doesn't have to read the news and see how the world is disgusting and violent.

The other day, I watched the news and saw a 9 year old kid shot, by drive-by. Today, I found an article regarding a Yazidi woman who is begging for people to bomb the place she is in. She was kidnapped and sold in a brothel controlled and operated by ISIS, and was raped 30 times, and is not even lunch yet. There is also another on going custody battle regarding a US Marine for killing a transgender man. These three news, from three different continents. I bet, if I look hard, I will find disgusting and disturbing news from each city, from all the countries in the world.

With all the violence that is going on, are you willing to leave your children, your children's children to a world like this?

My heart is broken...

It has been a while, and I am still broken...
I do not know what to do...

I miss my Sable,,,