I lost count... No steroids and the effects...

I am not sure how long I have not been using Prednisone, but i am quite sure there has been a lot of changes already...

Recently, I have been having hives on my face.. Like it's a row of swollen patch of skin which I do not know the reason. I am allergic to a bunch of stuff, but I have been avoiding them for a long time, it's mostly food so I do not know what happened here.

I also have been having a bunch of pimple on my face. Like little nasty red ones, that has pus on the tip. There are little, so it's not really that nasty, but it's still pimples!!!! Not A pimple, but pimples!!

When I wasn't yet fully diagnosed with Lupus, I usually have this pain on my right foot. Maybe because I walk lazy or my steps are weird, but it's only the right one, on a specific spot. I think I have a tear or two by my middle foot arch, but it's posed no problem until a few months before I had my Lupus. But now it's back. I am not sure if it is because of my lupus, I will tell my doctor on my next appointment.

I have been feeling weird lately, I feel really depressed most of the time. Like depressed. It's a feeling of hopelessness that I have never felt before. I mean I do have my ups and down, but it's not like this. Maybe I am impatient, maybe. I don't know, I think I really need to be checked. Physically and mentally.

Oh well... My life has been a constant struggle. Just wish me luck.

My monthly pains...

It's not really fun to have a monthly period... to both women, and men with women... :)

The PMS, the cramps and that yucky feeling...

But then it gets really worse when you have lupus... Seriously... I always look forward to my monthly period... Just to get over it, and of course to make sure I am not pregnant, since I am on medication that is pretty toxic for a fetus.

Monthly, around the same time as my period, pimples, joint pain on my hands, feet and shoulders, itchy, annoying rashes sprung out. it really sucks.. Like really bad. I hate it.

I can't do anything about it, just accept that it will be over soon.. and the cycle starts again.

:( i need a cure for lupus. we, the  millions of people affected with lupus, do. :((